What I am to you

Recently..


I got my tears drop and I hate it!..
I feel like I want to scream out loud until the mirror of you is broken into pieces!..
I hate myself of being naïve yet so egoist to you!..
I still thinking of you when I decide to not!..
I don’t care what it takes but I want you to know before I might have no chance in future!..
I hate for still repeating what I had done long time ago, how on earth I can forgot about it? And now suffering the same thing. So demn!..
I still want to say you are nice, but you hurt me. Nice people that hurt people?..
I hate to accept your unknown reason to make me feel this way, are you intend to do it on purpose or it just a simply bloody accident?..
I hate when you give hope and you ignore it!..
I hate when I remember and keep waiting for your own promises, but you never make it happen!..
I hate when I thought you will never showed up but you showed up!..
I hate when you thought you not deserved for me!..
I hate when you give sweet talk without thinking the big impact on me!..
I hate when I already felt strong enough to say it but then you crash the opportunity!..
I hate to accept that you will never understand why I hurt so much about you! Because you are not the one who is crying, you’re not the one who loved too much, and you're not the one who being ignored..
I hate when you being concern for a second and forgetting it in a second too!
I hate when I ask your friend, they said you are nice!..
I hate when I have to postpone my sorrow of you to let it go!..
I hate being burden this feeling; I want to get over it as soon as possible. Please, help me, give me some mercy to say something, and then I will walk away forever...
I hate when I can’t read, predict and chase you away!..
I hate for hold myself giving consideration to you but inconsideration to myself!..



born sincerely from the bottom of my broken heart,


i will cut down this rules and promise to myself it won't happen again in future!